I would be less lazy and distract-able. I work hard when actually working but, it can be a challenge to get started. The thing that prevents me from changing is the fact that I am lazy and distract-able. I could work on the lazy part but the attention deficit is inherited (both sides) and seemingly immutable.

Probably the fact that I am indecisive about the things I want, but maybe not. I'm not sure.

My health. It's like having (invisible) shackles on all the time.

I would totally be a huge slut if I could, or at least be an occasional haver of casual sex. I'm GGG, sex positive, and open to open relationships but not only does it usually take at least like a week of talking before I can hook up with someone but I'm also the total lesbo stereotype bringing the u-haul to the second date, ok not literally, but I'm in my early thirties and I've been in three long term (years, each) living-together relationships and I've never had a one night stand. The most casual relationship I've had since I was a teenager lasted for a year, we didn't even call each other 'my girlfriend' or talk about being exclusive, but we were- for over a freakin' year.
Seriously, I just want to get some and move on and I'm so jealz of my friends that can just have sex with someone they met at the party that night, I want to do it with someone who's name I don't know and then never talk to them again. I have no idea what my hang up is, probably I just don't ask enough and I maybe come off a little intimidating (which is really insecurity) but I don't know. Hopefully I'll figure it out someday.

Where to start???
I would change that I cannot keep to a budget to save myself (from bankruptcy, that is). It is so so SO annoying. I will be doing well, keeping away from temptation, then wham, I've just spent $400 on shoes or bought Orrefors crystal wine glasses. And then I am cross with myself.
Clearly this is a symptom of a greater issue to do with self discipline. But it is the thing that gives me the most grief.

On the bright side, I have some great shoes and that is a comfort in itself some days.

I've struggled with shyness and awkwardness all my life. I'm better about it now than ever before, but it's definitely held me back and is the one thing I would magically change if I could.

And I also used to have issues with overspending, procrastination, indecisiveness, overall lack of self-discipline. Tackling all of those was infinitely easier.

I'm horrible at picking my battles. I'll spend hours researching random shit on Wikipedia or have long discussions with my friends about something I'm angry/happy/confused about, but when it comes down to actually doing anything that matters (eg homework, applying for better jobs, applying for scholarships, maintaining friendships, you name it), I tend to procrastinate until the last second and then I end up putting in half the effort I should.

Also, since beginning my study abroad experience, I have learned that I am really bad at reaching out to new people to make lasting friendships. After 6 months, I have no one to casually call up to hang out with. Only people I recognize and can make small talk with at parties.

These days I think I'm pretty well rounded and happy with myself. That said, I'd love to be better at making strong friendships. From time to time I do, but they seem to fade quickly. I don't think it's a matter of intimacy so much as it is one of persistence and perhaps I am a little too wary of crossing others boundaries. I have a lot of friends, but only one real "confidant."

I'd probably get rid of the brain malfunctions.

I would like to procrastinate less. Maybe I'll start tomorrow.

in general terms:

I'd like to live more of my dreams,
and give more of my dreams life,
than is already happening.

The thing keeping this from happening? Likely and ironically: my subconscious.