I do selfless things. I spend a lot of time helping my friends, I know everyone does this but I do it more than usual. For example I'll spend hours helping my dyslexic friend with essays, sometimes at the expense of my own work. I also do things to help my autistic sister. I did volunteering at the farmer's market last summer. I am a lot better at helping other people than I am at helping myself.

Because my sister is autistic I have often been forced to put my own needs last in my life. I think this has contributed to my habit of not taking care of myself.

I'm not really that bad at finding people I like. The problem is I seem to simultaneously gravitate towards people I don't like. It's something I don't really understand.

I have been in therapy for years. I went to Landmark College for a year, I don't believe it is connected to the Landmark Forum, but it's a college for the learning disabled (ADD) and they focus a lot of setting goals. My advisor there told me I have a lot of anxiety and should consider getting serious psychological help.

I don't think I am trying to play therapist. In retrospect the emotional weirdness stuff is not all that relevant to the problem. The real problem is pretty typical relationship stuff. Basically I wrote too much because I had too many thing on my mind at the time when I was writing.

Thanks. This is good advice.

Thankfully there isn't much of a danger of me getting too involved in this thing, since I no longer live on campus.

You might be right.

I've basically exposed all of his flaws in this story, but that doesn't mean that as an all-around person he's an emotionally crippled creep. He's a normal person most of the time, and he's helped me out during my own emotionally crippled moments in life. I wouldn't bother wasting energy on this problem if I thought it was a hopeless case.